April 19th. I've been dreading this one for a while. Today would have been my fifth wedding anniversary. And honestly I thought deleting the 57 memories and photos on my Facebook account would be the worst part of my day. But then, a heating and cooling company restored hot water to the house after a… Continue reading It Is Finished
I can't even begin to imagine what you must think of me, the stories and lies you've been told, the spin placed on events over the last six years, the way they color the interactions we have. Every time I see you, I chose to start over, I chose to not form opinions of you… Continue reading To the New Woman in My Daughter’s Life
The Judge is signing the papers, my divorce is here. I have been waiting what feels like forever, but in reality has been 10 months to say that. A lot of feelings come with the thought- empowerment, freedom, elation, joy, but also sadness. Not sad in the sense that I miss my marriage, but because… Continue reading Never Final
2018- man what a year. A year that may have broken others and in many ways broke me. Have you ever heard that old saying "sometimes things have to fall apart so better things can come together?" It couldn't be more true when I look back. This past week I took steps to really do… Continue reading Planning Ahead and New Beginnings
The first Christmas just my daughter, my dog and I. I was super excited to just focus on us and make it really special I didn't even think about presents for myself until a friend mentioned it. Honestly, it wasn't on my radar. I usually had to nag my ex husband (I mean literally every… Continue reading A Divorced Christmas
When you're waiting for something you really want, time always seems to move just a little slower. That couldn't be more true in regards to our divorce papers. As I wait for them to come back signed from the judge I'm anxious, not because of what they symbolize, honestly I consider myself divorced at this… Continue reading Why I’m changing my name back
As we approach Thanksgiving, I've been trying to name the feeling that I keep grappling with. It's not sadness, it's not hopeful, it's not dread. But I know, as I walk into my family's dinner gathering tomorrow, there will be people who hug me and think I need the extra support, people who feel bad… Continue reading Finding the things to be thankful for
I celebrate everything, the dogs birthday, every first, seriously,any reason for a party or a selfie. Divorce isn’t something typically celebrated and I didn’t understand why you’d want to until I got divorced. While were still not 100% officially divorced, it feels like we’re on the other side of the drama (usually) and starting a… Continue reading Celebrate Good Times, come on!
Divorce. You can almost feel the shame seeping from the word when you say it. I know the divorce rate is ridiculously high in America and that’s unbelievably sad. I never set out to be a statistic. I didn’t and I don’t think anyone does get married anticipating they will get divorced. But the question… Continue reading Putting on a Brave Face
A few weeks ago I shared about dating through a separation and divorce, it's certainly not easy. No matter who you are, or what your situation, divorce isn't easy. It's not something you can just pick up from and move on. It requires taking a hard look at yourself, at the reasons why your marriage… Continue reading How Do I Love Again?